It just seems unreal to me to have a life with someone for that long and realize that you were living with a total stranger the whole time...I let this person raise my kids with me..I thought we were a family. To have that person that you trusted turn on you and abandon your kids is hurtful...my life will go on and we will be happy, but I don't think I will ever trust a person again.
I understand that he is an alcoholic...I get it, and I can forgive him because I don't want to spend the rest of my life hating another human being, but I don't think I can forgive him for turning his back on my kids the way he has. and it doesn't seem to have affected him at all..he simply moved on and has not looked back.