Hi, thanks everyone for your responses, I feel a lot better now and calmer, i went to the gym to do some weights and let off steam. I rang my ex then to make sure the kids are ok and im glad to say they are. She apoligised for her behaviour this morning and even admitted that her drinking when she goes out is over the top and making her depressed when coming down. She also admits that she finds it hard to say no to her family when asked out drinking, but she says shes going to try and get back on track and stay in next weekend. Wish she could quit altogether but thats her choice.
ReadyAtLast-- She is a good mother to the kids, she never touches a drop of alcohol in their presence ,its just her attitude towards me after shes been out with her family.
Soooooo glad i havent drank on it and stayed sober, think by my actions she will respect me more as time goes on.
Thank you all again for helping me stay sober