Screwed Up, again.
I like to get extremely intoxicated and wonder around abandonded buildings in the St. Louis area. I spray paint on the walls and since I am an alcoholic, I have essentially been doind this alone lately, noone wants to be around me when I get like that.
I work/ed the overnight shift at Cafe, yesterday, I got drunk before work (down at the railroad tracks, all alone).
The cafe is very busy, I was so overwhelmed I literally walked out of the shift, being the only food server there, leaving the guests and the non-english speaking cook deal with it on their own.
I have been staying with my father (in hopes of sobriety and gaining my own living quarters), so, I drove home after "quitting" packed my belongings and drove to Chicago, where there is nothing for me at all, othere than a buddy who is basically dealing with the same thing I am.
This is not the first time I have done something ridiculous like this, I would reallly like for this one to be the last.
So, I screwed up.
Day 1.