I started drinking out of severe family stress about 5 years ago. I went to AA, was sober for a while, then picked up and was able to moderate. That went on for a couple years. Now the family stress is back. I was still fine, having a couple drinks and being able to stop. No problem at all. But I came back here because I felt like even when I knew that I had had my couple social drinks and needed to stop, I felt like I wanted more. The stress has been absolutely unbearable, yet I was able to keep my will to stay in control. Last night when I was SO HAPPY and stress free for the first time in MONTHS, I gave in to that AV saying so what, you can have a couple more if you want. I've been doing so awesome, and I ruined it. I feel like I'm a situational alcoholic, if that makes sense. I don't know, maybe thats a totally ignorant thing to say, but I have felt that way. So now its Sunday, the beginning of a new week, and the beginning of me completely abstaining for a while.