A couple more things. This will never, ever work if I don't start with absolute honesty. I said when I registered for this site I'd stopped drinking on 3/3. Lie. I drank heavily last night and have been sad and miserable all day. Still in my pajamas in fact. No more lies.
And this ain't my first rodeo, knowing in my heart of hearts I have a real, honest to God problem with alcohol. And I knew I should stop. I've known it for a long, long time. Time to get real. Time to tell my family.