Oh yes. I was like a fish out of water for a while. After all, we've used it to cope with life for a long time. The thing is, it never really helped us cope - all it did was harm us and keep us from making good decisions and living life the way we were meant to. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to get that.
You're doing great, Unix. Just by coming here and sharing your feelings - you are beginning to heal. Congratulations for rising above the desire to go buy something. You did great - and it will get easier.