I hated AA and I'm 4.5 months sober and I finally embraced the program because it has worked for millions of people. I committed to 90 meetings in 90 days when I couldn't force myself to go to one a month. I couldn't go a day without vodka. Today, 131 days in, I feel AMAZING. No joke. That **** works. You got nothing to lose, that's how I looked at it. I tried eVERYTHING else...nothing worked. So far, this does. good LUck!