Not inconsistent. As I said, if I knew then what I know now...
I understand now what I didn't then.
I have learned it. I cannot unlearn it.
I was done drinking for sure the first time, but what I was not prepared for was the day my AV spoke to me and I listened because I thought it was me. Now that I know that any thought that suggests drinking is AV, it is dismissed automatically like a computer program runs in the background, so it is not like something I have to keep doing on an ongoing basis. I hope that makes sense. Non, I really do appreciate your sincere questions, and I will try to give my clearest answers.
Although my intent was clear, I truly was missing a big piece by not being able to identify and separate. I knew of no such concept. I do now.