Thank you to those who shared posts about being physically abused. This is something that my family members keep asking me, how long do I think it will be before he hits me? And I keep saying, no I don't think he would ever hit me, he's much bigger and stronger than me and he could have done it already if he chose to, plus he told me in the beginning that he would never hit me. And my brother, who has experience with using cocaine, responded, no, he won't hit you - but cocaine will, he will be saying to himself, no I don't want to hit her, but the cocaine will be the one controlling him. And although I still want to believe that he never would, after reading some of your posts, it's starting to sink in that it's a very real possibility and that I've been very lucky. I'm so sorry for those of you who had to go through that, and I thank you for sharing.