Originally Posted by wichitagirl
I'm stuck on Vicodin ES - do you know anything about that? I like it, though, I think I mentioned. How do I NOT like it?
Wow, that's a tough question. How do I NOT like it? Well, I liked it, too. Way, way too much. But I didn't like getting sick from it (I threw up a lot). I didn't like the thousands of dollars I spent on it. I didn't like feeling trapped in the despair of addiction. I didn't like the loss of self, the loss of control, the loss of everything that I cared about. I didn't like the risk of getting caught, the legal messes. I didn't like the chaos it created in my relationships. I didn't like feeling like there was no hope, feeling suicidal. I didn't like getting to the point where I couldn't imagine life without opiates and I couldn't imagine life with them. I didn't like knowing that I was going to die if I didn't get some real recovery.
The pain of using became more than the pain of quitting.
jojo