I received a phone call on my cell phone from my house phone. No one was on the other end, but I could hear Ciairra (AD's girlfriend) yelling at Te (AD) to give her the knife, that she was bleeding and she was hurting herself. I could hear Te yelling to leave her alone...it was a jumbled mess. I called 911.
I called Del.
I decided not to run home.
The police called back, said she was intoxicated and that there were no fresh wounds, Ciairra was going to stay with her and that was that.
Del said he was going to go over there and tell her she needed to leave.
This is bull s#$!. She is making our lives miserable. She wont stop drinking.
I am so tired of feeling like a failure and loser because of her. Im tired of the drama. Im tired of the desparate hope I cling too...and knowing its ridiculous. Im just tired. and I want her gone away. I hate her for doing this to herself and to us.
I need the serenity prayer more than ever and I need an Al-Anon meeting. I have to go to the 2nd part of this meeting this afternoon and try to act like a "normal" person. I hate this.
