Originally Posted by EternalQ

Grateful for the days when I feel like I am not making any headway. Because those days force me to work at not judging myself and beating myself up. I start to do that... and I have to make myself stop. Then I have to stay in that uncomfortable place of not meeting my expectations but not feeling ashamed by that. Very tough spot. But if I can sit with that spot, then maybe I can detach enough to either re evaluate my expectations or to look at what self defeating maneuver I am using to hold myself back. And do all that while still maintaining some self esteem. Quite the trick. Lol