Good to see you back Paul. Sorry to hear about your moms recent relapse after 7 years. I understand you not wanting to move out right now because you don't trust your ability to control the drinking. I know I had lost total control over it yet I still held a job and led a "functional" life. I could see my life starting to crack though. The first time I really felt in control was after I quit.
I wish I could write more to you buddy, but I need to get to sleep. 12 hour shift tomorrow. Best wishes and keep posting.