First all that is brilliant news. One you have been offered a new job n two you are detoxing.
Journal all the withdrawals down n then you'll have them as a reminder where not to go back. Keep posting here for support.
That's a negative attitude to think you will not get the job. Ok there may be drug testing. Be honest. Tell them you had a drug problem n that you are tackling it. You have found ways to overcome the problem. Is that not what you do in a job anyway? For instance, a car's broke you fix it - may take time but you do it by working through a plan. Sometimes you need equipment in order to complete the task. Sometimes you need people (eg to bring parts) n so forth.
The low feelings are provably down to withdrawal. Try to acknowledge what may be down to withdrawal n see if you can turn it around.
For instance, instead of, 'I screwed up,' 'I must have done something right to have been offered a new job.'
You acknowledge you're a good father, which is positive. Start with that n keep going.
Good luck n well done n the job offer n beginning detox. We are here to support you n listen anytime.
Evey
