don't know how you'll trick yourself, Jason.
don't know WHY you'd trick yourself?
to me, it was a huge deal; seemed insurmountable at times.
so when i finally did, i did it in full consciousness of what i was doing, and how humongous it was!
that, to me, was the point: an acknowledgement that i was in serious trouble and i was seriously doing something about it and i was seriously facing myself and a room full of strangers.
and so on and so on...
you can do this!
no tricks required.