Donna -
Congratulations on 5 months! Great accomplishment. I'm sorry you relapsed, but that doesn't mean your sobriety journey needs to end. Refocus your attention now, reflect and learn from the events that led to your first drink so that you can do better next time.
This is only MY opinion, OK? So I hope you don't take offense. I'm also an AA'er. Sometimes I think they focus too much attention on the amount of sobriety. For me, I put so much stress on myself to get that 1 month chip, 3 month chip, etc.....that I forgot why I wanted a sober life.
I stopped focusing on anything but today. That's it. So long as I take it one day at a time I'm at peace.
Stay sober today. Tomorrow will take care of itself. Big cyber-hug to you. I know you can do it.