I remember going to see Flight in the theater and having a similar experience. I think what you are describing gets better, though. I have just over six weeks under my belt, and as I have regained my composure and my competence (and my own cringe-worthy behavior is further and further behind me) I am finding more confidence to re-engage in the world. I can place phone calls now. I can look people in the eye. And I can feel sincere compassion for others who are struggling. Do I still have a lot of work left to do? Yep. Do I finally think that work might actually be do-able? Sure do!
I'm glad you are here greenjeans. Keep coming back, and keep posting!