Ok.
I'm in a bit of a better headspace today. Well,
Not a good headspace, feel really
Depressed but I'm not *as* wasted so I can see all these wonderful and caring posts and I feel bad for not responding to each one as it deserves. Thanks everyone. There really are
Some amazing people here.
I've got no alcohol and limited pills. Could easily go find something else of course but I'm going to try my hardest not to. I'm too scared to take nothing. I'm terrified of those suicidal times that just overwhelm me. So so scared and they were worst when I was sober. So what to do?
Anyway. House to clean, pizza to cool, children to entertain, will
Not pass out today. My phone is still a bogan.