something I know for sure --- I am NOT the only one who knows where you're at.
I know at least three active members here that know a shiiteload about benzos and booze. The mixing
that is bringing this out of you.
If YOU will not reach out to all the hands...I am at a loss.
I never had hands in this hell..I couldn't reach out like you are doing...but I've seen clearly people post that care about you.
Don't throw that away. Please don't.
My instinctual response to you saying "no one knows?" is that's bull...total bull.
There's quite a few that get it...have been in worse places, know about the doctor
bull, the kids/busy-ness, the take too much and have no control. Plenty.
Are you going to actually connect with anyone who's been or is at where you are or no? If no....I'll never bother you again. I detest nagging, wasting my time and yours....so say the word.
Till then - I'm going to keep rooting for you.
I'm currently working on a post that I need to do for Carol and my eyes are swollen from crying and it's frigging hard....yet, nothing will stop me from publishing this blog....I've got serious issues about sharing, abuse, invisibility and yet I am plowing through....it's frigging hard. So is what you are doing.
Keep going, MLC....keep talking at the very least. Don't isolate, no matter what.