Precious I could not be more proud of you! These are some really honest and insightful revalations, couldn't have been easy to dig that deep. Number 5 in particular is amazing. I think that one will help not only yourself but other people who read it.
Want to leave you with a quote:
"Is suffering really necessary? Yes and no. If you had not suffered as you have, there would be no depth to you, no humility, no compassion." -- Eckhart Tolle, author of "The Power of Now."