Thanks for sharing - I'm a fellow Chicagoan with about 10 years on ya. I'm pretty familiar with how the lifestyle here in the city can be real tough for addicts and alcoholics like me. If there's a bar near an El stop on the red line or blue line, I've probably been there. Sounds like you are at a point where you are facing yourself. Have you been able to come up with a plan or solution that you're working on? Hope all's well.