Divorce from AH final this week....
I received the judge's final signed divorce decree this morning from my attorney. Evening knowing it was coming at some point soon, seeing the final signature left me completed gutted, nauseas, and feeling numb the rest of the day. I'm on the verge of tears but they won't come.
This time last year XAH and I were planning on getting pregnant. I realize now how much I minimized his sh*tty behavior because of my own agenda to get pregnant. I was really unhappy and really hopeful, not a very good combination.
Two weeks ago I did have an amazing revelation that hadn't occurred to me, it felt like a weight had lifted from my chest: This past 11 months have been really sucky but had I been with XAH instead of divorcing him, they would've been a lot worse.