My heart goes out to you snowfall.
Addiction is such a horrible disease. It would be hard to watch a complete stranger go through it. When it's happening to someone you love, the pain can be unbearable sometimes.
I hope you're taking good care of you. Your son is blessed to have a mom who has removed him from the day-to-day heartache and insanity of living with an active alcoholic. Are you going to al anon meetings? Are you taking good care of yourself physically and spiritually? Please take good care of you and place your husband in God's loving care. I know how hard it is. I really do. Every day I have to accept that I am powerless to help my exah (the father of my child). Every day I have to say a prayer and place him in God's loving care so I can go on with my day. Our sons need us to be strong and healthy. As tragic as this disease is when it effects our loved ones, it would only double to tragedy to let the disease destroy us as well.
Hugs and understanding...
Mary
Mary