This happens and it will probably happen again. Don't beat yourself up about it. I try to make the meetings as fun as I can. I enjoy going but tonight is a speaker meeting and I am just not looking forward to it. I will go and probably do a little reading before I go so my mind is in a better spot. I like the suggestion of trying out a new meeting spot. I have my Tuesday night group that I will always go to but I have been thinking of trying some place new. Hang in there. You can do this.