Thank you all for your wise words. I am touched by how much wisdom and knowledge can be found when you reach out.
The thing I struggle with is pretending to not care, when I do. Hanging up, walking away, not listening always feels like abandonment. It is hard when you love someone and have to act like you don't.
Or I have to shift my focus and realise that love looks different with an A. These actions will actual reflect a deep and compassionate caring that says 'You can take care of yourself, if you choose to'.
Sometimes I wish it was easier to think about me, I have always found it easier to feel for others.
Thank you all -