Hi thanks caihong. I'm still getting blown away by how much support is coming my way. It's just amazing. I had a better night thanks only to one and half sleeping pills although. As John Lennon ( ? ) says what ever gets you thru the night. Insomnia has always been a part of my drinking too. Havnt been able to sleep properly since I had the twins and was drinking red wine to pass out. Then awake at three : drinkers false dawn , as my friend calls it ! I use guided meditation , audio books, but honestly sometimes I can lie there for hours and hours with nothing working.