Ptcapote , thank you !!! I reread what I had posted and was like um what did I just say ? It's a pretty heinous thing to admit isn't it but nice to know we arnt alone. Thanks for being brave enough to share that with me ! At the end of the day it's just another biological function not working Bc were drunk. I'm lucky my partner didn't redicule me, but he has certainly brought it up in his Txts to me since he left. I guess he knows how ashamed I am about it. Good good luck with your day. I feel so much better today after one day off it and some sleep. Write again soon x