Hi I have a very similar story to you I don't crave drink and can go for months without drink but when I do go out I end up smashed no matter how hard I try to stay in control. I can go out with my wife and have a few drinks and leaved it at that but when I end up at the bar with the lads it's a whole different story. What I am going to try and do us take myself out of these situations. If I'm out with the boys I drive or in some cases I just won't go and put myself in that situation. I am 31 now and have been doing this from uni once I lost my memory once it just has kept happening. My wife finds it hard to understand as she takes a few drinks but knows when to stop unfortunately we don't have this mentality. I hope we can keep in touch and let me know how you are doing