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I was abused when I was younger. Other physical contact was minimal. Several years ago.I was at first forced into.becoming a hugger. I've learned to enjoy it. But I tense, my whole body, most noticeably my jaw, I lock jaw anytime I touch someone, any tome I hug them, anytim I pet my animals.
I have two thoughts, one is a fear or pain considering most of.my physical interactions.went as such as a kid.
The other is my concern of ntinuing the cycle. I have a temper which I have gotten help on.and is in a much better place than ever before. But I treat myself like an anger addict. I have to be vigilant, I can't slip. I think that tenseness resonates, so when I try to touch another living thing I go into hyper control....anyone else do this or has?