feelings
I feel sad. I feel guilty because I don't really have any reason to be if I compare myself to others on this forum. I can't talk F2F with my friends cuz they just don't like hearing it. some friends huh? Im not sure why I feel this way. I made a gratitude list a mile long and still, its like a hollow apathy in my gut where I wish I could lay in bed and stare at the wall. I just don't understand why it feels like going through the motions. I did have moments of joy today, maybe its just a craving for weed, Im not sure. I went through a whole pack of smokes today. I have no reason to have this negativity.... I've been saying over and over and over "this is the day the lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it" and still.... I just feel hollow.... thanks for letting me share :l