Welcome ynneJ -
I'm so very sorry for what you've gone through. I agree with the others that you can't deal with this alone and I'm glad you reached out today. We all know what it's like to get caught in a vicious cycle of drinking, thinking it helps us feel better. It can ruin your life.
I hope you're able to talk to your parents - you need their love and support right now. It's the hardest thing in the world to tell the people we love that we have a problem.... we feel so ashamed and worry about their reaction. But it's the best thing we can do. This isn't your fault and I'm sure your parents want only the best for you.
We're here to listen and support you in whatever way we can.
