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Old 02-08-2013, 05:07 AM
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Fernaceman
Trudger of Happy Destiny
 
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The ultimate goal IS permanent sobriety, but I can't think of it in such finality. I really can't. I feel it defeats its purpose. I made many declarations of quitting and forming new behaviors in the past, mostly genuine at the time. I have learned thinking of this thing in a whole long term approach is very dangerous to me. I then start obsessing about how "good" my life will be in (x) years and fantasizing about how awesome it will be then. It takes away and robs me of my current state and situation. I sure hope I am seeing how important it is for me to experience these life lessons I am trudging through right now. My experience with these can and already has been benefiting another, so they hopefully don't have to make the same mistakes I did.

And that whole line "As we trudge the road OF happy destiny." I read that whole thing wrong for a long time. For some reason it appeared road TO happy destiny. I just realized this recently. I (we) are already AT happy destiny through this program, if we have completed the steps and cleaned house. It's up to us to perceive how fulfilling our road of happy destiny is.
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