Welcome tinkerbell!
I can relate..... It took a lot of failed attempts to control my drinking before I could accept my alcoholism. We can get pretty miserable trying, too!
I tried to juggle everything
That was me, too, and it proved to be something I had to change in early sobriety. When we're trying to do it all (and do it perfectly), it's easy to feel overwhelmed and look for a way to turn our brains off. Learning to let things go is an ongoing lesson for me.
I'm glad you're here - this place helped me turn my life around.
