Thank you so much for sharing that PCL, it has really helped me.
I am 8 months sober, but before I quit, I had developed a habit of adding diazepam into the mix. I was prescribed them for pain, but they were the only sure fire way I had to help me sleep so I began abusing them.
Since I've been sober, I have taken them once or twice when my insomnia has caused anxiety. Only a couple of times, but I know they're there and have remained an option. It sure would be a dangerous path for me to go down, I know that.
I've thrown them away this morning after reading your post.
Thank you x