you're uncovering alot of information about yourself. Much of which is not pleasant. Ive talked to a lot of folks whose 5th step was not very pleasant. Seems the best answer is to continue to fit yourself to be of service by working the rest of the steps. Life gets real good when you start to see how your experience can benefit others. Those things about yourself which once were shameful or disappointing become great assets in helping others. Keep it up!