In a way I've let you guys down, you got to me three days! I want to pick it back up again, you saw the determination I had -
Kys,
you've let nobody down but yourself.
and nobody got you the three days but you yourself.
the fact that determination wasn't enough is something positive to grapple with. i had to do it over and over, since it was unbelievable to me that determination alone wouldn't get the job done, so to speak.
if you can't/don't want to be in social situations without drinking, then you have two options, only one of which includes sobriety.
there IS the option of socializing and "having a social life" without you drinking, but if you don't want that, then you've set the game up so that you'll....play this one out to the end, Kys, and see where it takes you.