Originally Posted by
Kys 
Thanks
@Dogfonecarl especially. I don't understand how I used to drink normally but now I can no longer. Seems I'm bent on getting back to my old (better?) self than trying for a new one.
I really appreciate your words.
I tried for 20 years to drink normally. I knew there had to be some way. When alcohol had kicked the snot out of me for the thousandth time. I gave up trying and gave up drinking.
Once the switch is flipped in an alcoholics brain there is no way that I have discovered to un-flip it.
AA has taught me how to treat my condition but there is no cure for me.