People talk about rock bottom, it's different I guess for everyone....but this is mine. I have let myself down for such a long time, so many years of saying I'll stop but never stopping. So many years of lies.
I have a milestone life birthday coming up on Sunday, and the fact that I am still an alcoholic mess at 49 is so horrifying to me. This is it. I am done.
I have grown to despise alcohol as much as I despise myself.
There's nothing I can do about my regrets and wasted years, but I can turn 50 sober. I need to do this; I want this more than I ever knew I could.....just don't think I can do it on my own.
So I'm here.....
