Really struggling and don't know why
I'm attending meetings and I completed the step one packet today. I knew that there was a strong possibility I would drink yesterday so I took an Antabuse pill and I went to a meeting with a friend. Today I called two people to talk one I don't know very well at all. I took another Antabuse pill because I know I would talk myself into going to the liquor store. I don't know what is triggering me. I'm 8 months sober you would think I would have a handle on things. My sponsor is dealing with some family stuff. Normally I would call I hesitate even though she told me to call anytime even the middle of the night. I said a prayer last night one of gratitude and for god to help me get through this without drinking. I feel scared these days