Sorry to hear how you are feeling Caldus.
Have you spoken with your sponsor and been honest with him about how you are feeling?
Perhaps you need to go back to Step 1,unless you have total acceptance of your Alcoholism there is no point moving on to step 2.
[QUOTE=Caldus; I know I'm also partially doing it for my mom since she is in AA and was really concerned and hurt by my drinking.
You have to want sobriety for yourself,doing it for someone else just wont work.
I wish you well and hope you continue in sobriety.