Ugh, I am scared now too. I'm 97 days today and it's coming close to the longest I ever had. I'm getting that feeling, too, of "I got this" - but I want to stay scared and lost so I'm scared to even think about trying it again. God, I've relapsed and lied so many times it's sick...I gotta stay on top of my game this time! Thank you for the post - I like reality sometimes. I just know I wouldn't have been able to stop at that. good for you that you were