I can completely relate to your sexuality struggle, I first started problem drinking to wash out reality, I was not happy that I knew I was gay and there was nothing I could do to change it. I drank, drank, drank and drank trying to smother it out. I eventually came out and (thankfully) my family accepted me, but I had picked up a ball and chain in the process, I was a problem drinker, even at the age of 26 I was drinking 1/5ths of vodka straight. it sucks cause , when you come out you feel so free. but when your an alcoholic, that ball and chain stays right with you.