Thanks for the support. I know what went wrong and I am a fool to believe it wasn't to escape anything. Lets get real. I wanted to escape alot of things, including being an alcoholic. Just to prove that I could do it again. I am at so much more peace today than I was even 2 weeks ago. Watch yourself, and pay close attention. Even though nothing bad happened, THIS TIME, doesn't mean the next time will have the same results. Seriously, the calmness I feel since that night is unremarkable.