No she barely drinks. she Doesn’t want me to drink because I have a problem. I dont think she knows i picked up again. We have different schedules. Well there are a lot of reasons. It runs in my family so im sure that doesn’t help. I am not out to my family, so i think that is the main problem. I hate lying or hurting people so I think that how it started to get out of hand. I always drank but not like this. Its effecting everything and needs to stop. I also have sleeping problems so that where the wine comes in but you know how that goes. I felt so good when I stopped but I was so bored. Stupid reasoning… I hope I can get a good night sleep tonight and get the last couple of days out of my head.