that was awesome. I am so very new in this journey of codependent recovery... but I remember experiencing that same awe and amazement when I first got sober. Truly, I suddenly realized that God was doing for me what I could not do for myself.... I didn't need to make anything happen... I just had to stay sober and stay out of the darn way!! Prayer, willingness, and doing the basic footwork for MYSELF allowed me to grow while God took care of everything else in my life... I didn't have to worry about making situations turn out anymore!
What a great reminder for me!!! This was like a light bulb. This codependent recovery is just like my recovery from addiction and for some reason I never really "got" that until just now... I am addicted to HIM and the only way I will get better is by getting space from my DOC (my a), getting in touch with God, and understanding and working on the reasons WHY I was using it in the first place.