It is safe (the DV) hotline; just like here. None of us are judging or trying to tell you what to do with your life - we just care, so very much. It has to be your decision, every moment of every day; but you can continue the life you live now - or you can try to better it. Either way you will find support on SR and DV Hotline. I hate that you are going through this day in and day out. I hate that your heart is torn, that you are afraid and that you are bruised.
I read our responses to you and they seem so harsh and direct, bossy almost; but it is only because we are frightened for you, we hurt with you, and we see hope for you.
Hugs my dear.
Trish