You know Weird, for some of us it has to get bad enough. I thought it was bad enough, hit several bottoms and kept going back to my wine. It doesn't have to get that way for me any more because I also know what long time sobriety can do for me. I feel good all of the time, I sleep better... Now this doesn't mean that life gets better, but I also have a ton more of coping skills to deal with it when it's going down.
Just keep posting, we're here, and I'm sure a lot of us get it.
Just a throwing it out there, but other than here, have you tried any help on the "outside"? Therapy, meetings, out-patient, rehab? For some of us we needed some strong support. My best to you Weird.
PS ~ Great advise from jkb.
