I know my family and hubby would be supportive and even grateful if I came to them....but wow, its such a hard step as I'm sure most of you know. Is it my pride thats in the way? I'm scared of the talking behind my back, maybe their lack of confidence in me that might stem from this, and what if I never get that back from them? What if they look at me different...they could be ashamed of me and lord knows how long that would last. Even though I know they would help me, I dont know how they would feel about me. The constant "are you ok, how are you feeling today?" So many things. Ive always done everything on my own. I hope I can do this on my own. Sorry, sometimes its hard for me to articulate my feelings. Does any of that make sense?