I fell into booze again
My story seems not so important when I jsut got done reading some other post here. Mine is more like I am whining about things.
I got drunk sat and sun and said more stupid stuff to my women, well X women. She laid the law down and told me to get lost.
Somehow alcohol won that battle. The battle was either the alcohol goes and she stays or the alcohol stays and she goes. I let the alcohol win and I'm emotionally distraught.
The helplessness I feel after a train wreck like this is pitiful. I can understand losing a women to because you can't get along with her or whatever. But when I am sober we get along great.
How can alcohol make me so mean to someone I love? I don't understand that.
I need to get sober NOW and fast. not to win her back though because she ain't coming emotionally back to me again. But I need to do it for myself. And i need time to heal from my love scars that I caused myself.
I know I am crying like a wimp here about this but it really hurts when alcohol destroys a relationship.
I'm gonna amiss my baby. Thanks for nothing alcohol.