(((sadconfused))) I'm sorry you were hurt. You do not deserve to be treated with such utter contempt. You do not deserve to be hurt.
Please consider calling the DV hotline. You don't really have to say much, just let them know what happened. They are wonderfully compassionate people who have seen and heard it all. There is no shame in asking for help out of this situation in which you find yourself. You deserve a happy, joy-filled, and peaceful life.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...out-abuse.html
For the US:
National Domestic Violence Hotline:
1-800-799-7233
1-800-787-3224 (TTY For The Deaf)